Monday, August 4, 2008

You make all the difference...

As long as you are in my life, not much bothers me or gets me down.
I may get quiet sometimes......

but know, that I am content because you are with me.
That's all that really matters to me........

Everything, and everybody else is secondary. You make all the difference.

FEAR ITSELF

I can’t understand why in the world the word “fear” is so powerful?
It can ruin great plans, can make you look so stupid and disoriented, you can also lose people you care so dearly because of it.

“Fear”, its eating me up… its killing me… it’s as if something is squeezing my heart, my face felt so hot… can even hardly hear somebody talking to me… so stiff...
Did my blood just suddenly stopped flowing through my veins? Coz it felt that way….

If I could have just made myself disappear that very moment, I would
or if I could have just paused the time and able to go back and edit some part, I would.

How can I fight this fear lurking inside of me when I felt a complete stranger in a place I was in.

I wish fear is just something that you can find inside your purse. One that you can just take it out and throw it away. And everything will be ok.
But sadly its not as simple as that. It will remain inside of you for as long as you choose, for not believing and trusting your own self.

That’s exactly what I was feeling… so inferior and different in so many ways. Maybe I’ll get over it. Just need some time to analyze myself and eventually get back in the race of life.


This phrase from a movie I saw is what's motivating me to make fear work for me and not against me. I know in my heart that its not gonna be easy, but I'll try.


"Whenever there is fear, there is opportunity"

In Life

In life, it isn’t hard to find someone to spend time with,
but it’s not easy to find someone that you can grow old with...

It is easy to have a conversation with anyone,
but it’s hard to trust everything to everyone...

Life’s intricacy is what makes us all inevitably capable of doing the unexpected
and pushes us of doing things beyond our limits…

In life, everything is a matter of choice and not by taking chances…
Though at times taking a chance could be our last resort in finding the real meaning to our existence…

My Now...

From a small town I grew up
Rough days,
Cold nights,
Tough life…
That’s what we had
But worked hard
Just to survive…

A dream was all I had
Enough reason to keep me going
Just make me strong was all I’m praying
Miles and miles away from home I traveled
Held my head up as my destiny starts to unravel

Though at times I cried
For Fear was crawling inside
Kept my faith real tight
So I can focus as I fight for life

Can’t pull me down
I will still shine
Can’t tear me up
I will rise and fly
My time has come
And this is my now

---- Iris

I am what I am

I am what I am
White, brown, black or yellow… it doesn’t matter
The color of my skin won’t unfold the true me.
You will never find out how good or bad I can be
Unless you’ll see through me

I am what I am
Asian, American, African or European… it doesn’t matter
My race or nationality serves no purpose
If the reason for my existence is to make a difference
And not to be different

I am what I am
Muslim, Catholic, Buddhist, or Mormons… it doesn’t matter
My faith is not your faith… My beliefs are not your beliefs…
Peace is what we all seek…For that…
Respect is what I need… and what I give you…

I am what I am
Tall, medium, large, or small… it doesn’t matter
For I will never let my structure hold me back
Don’t look down on me coz I will break the glass ceiling,
Reach for my goal and rise up from the crowd…

I am what I am
Grey, blue, brown or dark… it doesn’t matter
The color of your eyes makes you no better than I am
My ability to look back, see the present, and envision the future
Is what will make me better than you are…